PJ PAE 08S15

Sunday, 17 August 2008

well...i guess it's been long, but nothings changed. school's still hell for me. i just wish i don't have to step into that place again, but hell...fairy tales don't come true huh? i just had the opportunity to slack last Saturday...and curses, it felt so darn good. why can't weekends be longer?
at least I'm starting enjoy my trainings again. last Saturday was pretty good, but, it's a pity we'll never be able to match up to the seniors, which practically stamps out any chances of getting anything for the A division. how sad. I'm training for nuts. yeah...and it's all because some people don't train hard enough. i don't really want to blame them, because i honestly know how they feel. they say sports people have a lot of discipline. training day after day, going through the same routine. it's bound to get boring somehow, but they just keep doing it.
it's funny.
i tried to emulate these athletes and forced myself to go for every session no matter how reluctant i felt. how naive i was...tricked myself into thinking that my so called discipline can be translated into my studies. how wrong i was. it's funny.
it certainly is unfortunate that I'm not hanging on, but slipping, slowly, but surely. maybe that's why I'm not even enjoying a wee bit of school like, i presume, everyone else.
well...that's me keeping this blog alive. September holidays are coming. there's only one reason I'll mention that in this blog, and I'm sure you guys know it....just a thought, cuz I'd love to see each and every one of your faces again even if it feels weird to talk.